So tired. So very, very tired.

I have never felt so lost and confused as I have over this past month. I’m in the middle of a horrible situation that is totally breaking my heart. I can’t talk about it and I can’t share all of the details of it with anyone but my husband. I can’t escape it and I just need to watch it all play out and wait. It’s a situation that I can’t fix, even though I’ve tried and tried. I am so tired. Tired of worrying, tired of wondering and tired of waiting.

Why does life have to be so tough sometimes? Why don’t things always go exactly like they should? Why is it that when you’re doing everything right, it doesn’t end well? Why?

I’ve asked myself these questions over and over and I’ve got nothing. I guess that life is just that, life. There’s ups and downs and crazy turns. There’s new relationships and broken ones. There’s sickness and health. There are good times and bad times. There’s always a beginning and an end.

For now, I wait for an end to my situation. I am going to be at peace, and I am going to get through this. If you’re in a similar place, please know that you’re not alone. There’s a light somewhere, find it and hold on. We are going to be okay.

2 thoughts on “So tired. So very, very tired.

  1. shandracarlson June 8, 2012 at 4:53 am Reply

    Yes, we will be okay. Life isn’t always fun, you’re right, but one thing I know is that without the love of our family and friends it would be a whole lot harder. You’ve been a beacon of light for me friend, I hope you see a ray of sunshine and hope on the horizon. ❤

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