I see nothing and I REALLY need to see.

Its been an interesting couple of weeks in my weight-loss, get healthy journey. I’ve had my pants fall down in public, all of my shirts have become off-the-shoulder looks and my shoes are too wide for my feet. People are starting to notice a change in my appearance, which is nice to hear, because I’m just not seeing it. I’m feeling it, but I’m not seeing it.

I feel like I should be doing better, I should be losing quicker, and my changes should be more obvious. Somewhere in the back of my head, I know that I need to get my head to shut-up and just be satisfied with my progress so far. Why is that so hard, why do I continually get stuck on the big picture and just how stinking far I have to go?

I’m discouraged and disheartened, but I’m not really. I’m completely unsatisfied with my progress, but I’m also pleased. How does that even make sense? My brain annoys me.

So instead of focusing on nonsense,  I will wait and I will continue pushing forward. I’ll keep eating my protein, drinking my water and continually chewing my veggies. One day I’m going to look in the mirror and I’m going to see it. Until then, I’m trying to trust what I know.

I’m 22 lbs and 32 inches smaller. And that is something to be proud of.


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7 thoughts on “I see nothing and I REALLY need to see.

  1. realturkeylady July 22, 2013 at 10:19 am Reply

    Maybe if I were dissatisfied longer….I SEE a 10 lb loss and celebrate. with cake. and chips. chocolate too.

  2. Jolene July 22, 2013 at 10:31 am Reply

    You’re doing great!!! 22 lbs is A LOT ….good job!! when I decided that it was time to lose weight…..I kept a picture me at my heaviest…..then when I dropped ten pounds I took a picture of myself and placed it next to the “heavy” picture…..I kept doing that until I reached my goal, which was to fit into my favorite jeans without having to lay on the bed and suck in my fat!!

  3. Carla July 22, 2013 at 1:35 pm Reply

    April my friend, you are doing fantastic! I understand what you are saying as I am on a bit of a similar journey. I continue reminding myself that I am so much further ahead than I would have been if I had not begun to eat properly.

    Also, I don’t think we can ever under-estimate how much our weight is tied to our emotional health. It might be worth finding a counsellor or someone knowledgeable to talk to about how you are feeling. Someone who can help you deal with the changes as they happen, help you to see yourself as others see you, not through a mirror warped with our own emotional baggage.

    As with all things in our lives, it is not straightforward, there are physical, emotional, spiritual and mental aspects all rolled up and entwined together.

  4. cryssie (@eissyrC) July 25, 2013 at 11:18 pm Reply

    I feel the same way. I have been going to the gym the last 8 months. I go pretty much every day, and sometimes do a run in the evening. I have changed my diet drastically as well (prep, cook and portion my food twice a week). While I see that I’m getting stronger and faster, I’m not seeing any changes in size. Only a couple people said they can tell but its hard to say if they mean it or not.

    I might have to go see a doctor as a girlfriend suggested getting my thyroid tested, as well as getting tested for PCOS as that can be a deterrent to weight loss.

    I’m satisfied with where I’m going with my fitness, but I’d like to see it in inches or clothes size – ie going from 14/16 (depending on who makes clothes) or even seeing XL going to L.

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