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Weeks 45-56. The Art of Losing Everything BUT Weight.

I’ve been struggling to write a blog post for longer than I care to admit, but until I looked right now, I had no idea that it’s been this long.

I’m feeling fairly ashamed. Super Lazy. And a crap tonne of overwhelmed.

This has been a very, very, very long journey and I’m just so very tired of trying.

To get you all caught back up …. my lose weight and get skinny plan has completely sucked. Not a little bit but a whole lotta bit. I’d like to say that something cataclysmic happened so I could at least blame it on that, but of course, no such thing happened. It’s all me. All my doing and about 42 steps backwards.

I’ve managed to gain back 12 pounds that I’d hope I’d said goodbye to forever.  I had a set back in the IUD, correct all the bleeding nonsense and had to deal with all of that again. (Sorry, not sorry for the TMI there). I stopped going to bed at a decent hour. I started drinking Diet Pop again. I pretty much found all of my old habits and picked them right back up. I’m so annoying.

In the midst of all that, I’ve been enjoying more pain than I’ve had in quite awhile, and I’m sort of feeling like that may have been the beginning of my undoing. My elbows hurt, my chest aches, my legs are filled with shooting pain and my hands only work properly half the time. My body and mind lost the focus that I had firmly placed on myself and turned it towards pain. Is that what happened? Or can that at least be my excuse for falling backwards?

But now, as per usual, as I read my little diatribe above, I think I may have gained some insight into why I’ve been suffering more than usual. Fibro sucks, but if I’ve learned anything over this past year, it’s that when I’m focused and living a healthy life, I feel better. Much better. And with that realization, my good excuse flies right out the window. Sigh.

This journey is hard. So hard. Not the diet, not the giving up of sugar and all it’s wonderful tastiness, not the stepping on the scale every week or all the ups and downs. It’s the changing of your brain, and actually being able to listen to your heart and mind. Learning when to celebrate, when to hang on and when to let go. It’s being okay with who you are, every step of the way, while still wanting to work on change. It’s about eating and not getting so caught up in all the “I can’t haves” and choosing to have nothing instead. It’s about water and not Diet Coke. It’s not about getting skinny, it’s about living.  And living well.

It truly is about losing yourself and finding yourself all at the same time. I’ve always said that, but these past few months have really affirmed my words and are helping me to navigate this journey. I don’t fully understand the transition from overweight and unhealthy to healthy and smaller, but I’m getting there. Slowly but surely, and I’m still going. That’s got to count for something, right?

I’ve been quite disheartened and upset with myself about this blip, but I’ve decided to use a little bit of grace ON ME and to look at all the things that I HAVE accomplished over this past year.

  • I bought new pants yesterday and they are 4 sizes smaller than they were last year.
  • I can see my feet, which is something skinny folk will never understand. But trust me, it’s a big deal.
  • I still weigh 46 pounds less than when I started.
  • I’ve learned a lot about myself and many of my food triggers. And that pain really, really messes up my head and my ability to focus.
  • I’ve got an amazing support team and a coach that really, truly cares about me, where I’m at and where I’m going. I knew I had good people in my corner, but this year has really helped me find the people who matter most, and which ones want only the best for me. It’s been enlightening to say the least. Who knew a diet could do all that??
  • I am NOT on any iron supplements or B shots of any kind. I am officially off the transfusion and infusion train.
  • I no longer dream about bread. I am, or should I say, I was so weird.

I’ve had two really good weeks, and feel like I’m finding my way again. My pain goes up and down and so does the scale, but I’m doing more than okay. I’m going to finish this journey because I deserve to feel good all the time. This up and down, happy/sad, healthy/unhealthy nonsense just needs to come to an end.

I’m determined to make that happen.

Yes, I’m still doing Ideal Protein. I’ve still been weighing in weekly and working with my coach to try to push through all of this nonsense. He’s my calm in this storm, and has been the main reason why I haven’t just completely given up and accepted “fat” as my fate. He supports me, even though my journey hasn’t been easy or looked like how many people’s Ideal Protein journey’s look. BUT I know that without this plan and my coach, I wouldn’t be where I am right now and that is super important to remember. Not only for the world, but for me. I cannot do this on my own, time has proven that over and over.  I need a village and a plan.

So with that in mind, I’m giving you all permission to help me. Remind me to make good choices. Tell me to blog if I don’t. Encourage me. Point it out if you see my slipping. You’ve all been a big part of my story, and I need all of you to help me get through this. AND if there’s any way that I can encourage you or help you in your journey, please let me know. My joy comes from helping others, and really, who couldn’t use a little bit of joy?

Thank-you for being my people.

WANT TO JOIN ME ON THIS JOURNEY? The best way to learn more about the Ideal Protein plan  is to register for a free information session. You can find out when the next sessions are on this page.  Anyone attending the info session will earn a voucher for 1/2 the registration fee should you choose to join the program. And if you mention that you learned about them by reading my blog, you will also earn a special welcome bonus. My coach is based out of Sherwood Park at the local Medicine Shoppe pharmacy and he and his team are INCREDIBLE.  You can reach out to the Coaching team here.



The Road to Skinny …. Following the Rules

Well, yesterday was my bi-weekly weigh-in and the results were pretty good.

I spent the last 2 weeks actually following all of my coaches orders. I ate, and I ate, and I ate. More food than I’ve eaten in a really long time. I took my vitamins, drank copious amounts of water and did exactly what I was supposed to do.

Overall, I felt great, outside of this evil sinus infection that just. won’t. die. I slept well, still didn’t convince myself to exercise, but I made it through another 2 weeks. Yeah Me!

I lost another 9lb’s and 6 more inches. And even better news, my body fat percentage went down which means I’m not losing lean mass, which means I’m doing the right thing for my body.

This year WILL be the final chapter in my Fat April story. I know it, I feel it and I love it.

Last week, I also joined a great little group on Facebook called Mission Slim Possible. It’s a bunch of people wanting to achieve some big goals this year – health & exercise wise. They’re all there to support and encourage and lift each other up. They’re going to inspire me to exercise … hasn’t happened yet, but it will. LOL. I did manage to download a 7 minute exercise app though, so that counts for something right?? (Yes, I’m that lazy that I count that action as exercise).

I’m grateful for their honest and open hearts, and their daily words of encouragement. Our stories are all very different but our goals are the same. We all want more. We all want better. We all want change.

Wherever you are in your “get skinny/healthy” journey, find yourself a support system somewhere. If it can’t be your spouse, find a good friend. If your friends are as unmotivated as you are, find a group of workout buddies. Just find something or someone to help you get through this adventure. If you’re in the same boat as me, the journey will be long and tough, and not one you can do on your own.

Thankfully, I’m blessed with a good husband, great friends and an awesome coach. They are the voices that push me forward and remind me of my goals. They are my gifts in this world.

Who’s your helper? Go find one. Now.

See you in 2 weeks.



The Night that was FIERCE

A week ago, a bunch of fabulous people gathered to honor some incredibly amazing women and I was blessed to be in attendance. The FIERCE awards are an annual event created to recognize and honor women that have inspired, encouraged and/or beaten odds that most would think were unbeatable. Women that are quite often working diligently and quietly in the background without seeking recognition. Women that are changing the world around them. This is the night that lets people stand up and say .. You are Fierce and You are an Inspiration.  If you’d like to read about all of the nominees, you can do that here.

It’s hard to describe the feeling of being surrounded by such strong and powerful women, without all of the usual catiness. It is a night filled with awe and emotion as we celebrate these ladies that have made a real difference. As their stories and tributes were shared, it became clear that we were all a part of something amazing. It was such an honour to be able to share those moments as a group. We laughed, cried and remembered lives that were lost this past year. We celebrated with many standing ovations and were thankful for our supplied tissue packages. It was an absolute joy to be able to recognize people who truly deserved it.

I am thankful that I’m able to call many of the nominees and presenters, friends.  2 of them are extra special to me though, as they are my best friends. They are the ones receiving the awards, but I am the one that is blessed by having them in my life. THEY are MY prize.

Last year Shandra won the Phenomenal Female award. She endured things that would’ve taken many of us down and still managed to be a light to a lot of people around her.  I highly recommend you read her story, in her own words, here. Shandra continues to grow and change and is about to begin a new and amazing journey that is going to make a difference in the lives of many. You can follow along with her life and story on her blog … I promise you, it’s worth the read.

This year Tracy won the Empower award. She spends almost all of her time building up people who are quite often ignored. She is the first person to volunteer help when it is needed. She is a problem solver like no other and she will always stand up and fight when needed. When it became known that Tracy had been nominated for the award, many people stepped forward with stories detailing how she had affected their lives. She truly is changing lives, and it’s pretty cool to watch.

Do you have women in your life that amaze you with the things they do, and the stuff that they’ve worked through. Friends that work hard at making changes in the lives of others while expecting nothing in return. If you are as blessed as I am, I encourage you to consider nominating those women for a FIERCE award next year. Let other people see what you already do. It truly is an event worth sharing with someone you love.

Until next year, I encourage you in your journey. Be strong. Be present. Be determined. Be amazing. Be FIERCE.